reading thru...

I just looked back and wow - times have changed. Bella is almost 3. And her mama just got married again. Which may or may not put us back in the same situation as Dave and I were back in 2010. I'm not sure yet.

my amazing bf turned out to be a dud. He dumped me via text message. And I'm not going to waste any more space talking about him. Except to say that leaving him was the best gift I've given myself in a very long time. At his house I was made to feel unloved and unwanted - unimportant and in the way. WEIRD. That's how he made me feel. Like everything I loved was weird. So I was weird. and stupid. and God forbid we even talk about sex. Or the least amount of physical human touch. Cuz it wasn't happening. Which leads a girl to believe some bad things about herself. BUT... Like I said. leaving there was the best thing I ever did. Cuz I'm NOT stupid. Neither are the things I love. And now my 1st question to potential dates is: "Do you like Star Wars and/or Lord of The Rings?" I figure I've done my time trying to make a square peg fit into a round hole. It's a punishing business...

 So's my job!! I got the job at Publix. In the bakery. I know all 2 of my readers already know this, but they also know I'm OCD and feel the need for continuity and order. I'm thinkin' you'll hear much about this new job as I type out my thoughts here. Publix has been really good for me. We HAVE to talk to people. And I've found out that's ok. They have really high standards. And I've found out I can meet them. Other little strings I'll have to tie up later. It's Christmas Eve and I got alot to do!!

 I've changed significantly over the course of the past 2 years. I fervently hope that it SHOWS!!!!